So, I'm taking a class that basically is an introduction to health care careers. The unit we're currently doing is vital signs, learning how to take blood pressure, pulse, etc. In order to take blood pressure, we have to use stethoscopes.
Many months ago the special electronic stethoscope was purchased, and I even got another programming on my implant specifically for use with the stethoscope. Long story short, now that it's come time to use it I am not able to hear any noise that at all resembles a heart beating.
And you know what?
I'm sick of it.
I'm so unbelievably tired of having to try and find alternative ways to do things when for everyone else it's a thoughtless given they can take for granted. I've watched resentfully as all the other kids in my class went around taking each other's blood pressures, and I sat there with nothing to do. And I know in order to get anywhere in life, you have to roll with the punches while advocating for yourself. Most of the time, I get along just fine as far as hearing goes.I can hear better than ever, and I certainly perform well with my implants. I'll tell anyone and everyone that will listen about the amazing miracles of cochlear implants. I'm comfortable in my own skin, and not the least bit ashamed.
And yet..
I'm tired.
I know, it could be much worse. I've heard all the corny cliches. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger. Don't take anything for granted. Life's not fair.
Call me selfish, ungrateful, spoiled, or whatever else you want. But, right now, if I was given the opportunity to wave a magic wand and hear perfectly?
I'd do it in a heartbeat.
